Already failing

So in the first week i lost 1.6kg and guess what? Ive already put that back on again. My gym membership is already collecting dust. Havent been in over two weeks. The only thing i miss pre-baby is being able to go to the gym whenever i want. Now it involves organising someone to come look after Aria and making sure everything is sorted. I hate the area we live for walking cuz its steep hills everywhere.

Just fuck.

How did i do this before?? I used to eat so well, i used to enjoy healthy food. Now i get Dan to bring home takeaways cuz its easier.

Im getting really down about it and i dont even believe my own excuses anymore. Its not hard.. just do it! But i dont. I dont do it.

I need someone to give me a smack with the motovation stick.